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[Jun. 22nd, 2006|12:04 pm] |
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Okay, so it's been a while. I've mostly been hanging out with Jason, Tyler, and Ryan. Michelle has moved, and it's effected me, but not too much. My mother and I had a talk. She thought I was going behind her back and taking advantage, which I wasn't. Last night we picked Ryan up at like 10:30 and didn't get home until 12:00, and he stayed the night. My mom thought that something was going on, which it wasn't. I hate the way she thinks she can't trust me. I'm a smart girl, and I know how to handle myself. She thinks my big brother has been offering me pot. I love my mother to death, but dude, I wish she could trust me. I can't move to Florida until next summer, but I really don't mind. I have really good friends here. I've realized that Jason, Tyler, and Ryan are the best friends I could ever ask for. I have way more fun with them than I have ever had with anyone else. I really hope nothing goes wrong. I've recently realized my self-esteem is too low. I'm pretty. I have flaws, but i'm not ugly, I guess. I need to look at the good in me, instead of always trying to improve myself. It's my OCD, I swear. I always try to improve everything and everyone, and i'm never satisfied. Well, actually, I really can't say that. Right now i'm more satisfied than I ever have been before. I have a bestfriend. I have people who care. I have a mother that cares enough to actually ask what goes on in my life. I have a stepfather that screams and yells to the point of insanity, just to make sure I have responsibility. It's hard to deal with, but I deal with it anyway, 'cos these people are a hell of a lot better than nothing. Party yesterday was tight. I met cool people, hung out with this guy I met at a show. I really wish Michelle would call me or something, though. I haven't talked to her since Sunday. It's wierd. I can't believe how fast the year went by. I'm still trying to figure out how it's already gone. I've been listening to the same song on repeat for the past hour. I think i'm done writing for now, so yeah. Comment this thing (:
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[Jun. 9th, 2006|07:20 pm] |
Today I skipped. Then I thought I got caught, but I didn't. Then I went shopping with Michelle, and she bought me ice cream. I came home, took a shower, talked to mark on the phone, then lily came over.
We're having fun.
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